My days, they are the highway kind

My days, they are the highway kind
They only come to leave
But the leavin' I don't mind
It's the comin' that I crave.
Pour the sun upon the ground
Stand to throw a shadow
Watch it grow into a night
And fill the spinnin' sky.

Time among the pine trees
It felt like breath of air
Usually I just walk these streets
And tell myself to care.
Sometimes I believe me
And sometimes I don't hear.
Sometimes the shape I'm in
Won't let me go.

Well, I don't know too much for true
But my heart knows how to pound
My legs know how to love someone
My voice knows how to sound.
Shame that it's not enough
Shame that it is a shame.
Follow the circle down
Where would you be?

You're the only one I want now
I never heard your name.
Let's hope we meet some day
If we don't it's all the same.
I'll meet the ones between us,
And be thinkin' 'bout you
And all the places I have seen
And why you where not there.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Black Moon Rising

 

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I am in the process of analyzing my birth chart which is so much fun and really interesting. 

 

It's snowing outside.. my mind is blank.. I am tired.

 

 

On my mind.

So what has been bothering me lately is the fact that I can't seem to find the time to do the things I desire to do. This sounds like a dumb excuse to not follow your bliss. But after coming home from work (although I come home at a reasonable time of the day) I feel myself drained of all energy, all I can do is lay on the couch and eat and watch stupid TV shows. It sucks. It completely disconnects me from my spirituality, my creativity and my imagination. I feel like it makes me dumb and dead...

The problem is I don't want my work life to be the MAIN focus of my day, of my life, of my hours spent on this planet. I don't want to waste breaths on the emotions I have when I feel drained of all my creative energy and strive. It is a terrible feeling.
And I still haven't found a remedy for this. Incrementing small things like lighting a candle in the evening and silently sit in prayer or simply drawing a rune/tarot or oracle Card is what I am trying to do at the moment.
It is a really small way to start but I guess I have to start with small steps...

The Stars...

A few days ago I felt the urge to go out on the balcony at night to look at the stars. It was a clear night sky, black with a waxing moon, cold air and thousands of stars looking down on me. It felt magical just looking at the universe and experiencing infinity...
Doing this gives you a shift in your perspective on things. Suddenly your problems of the day don't feel as big anymore. You know that you, and everyone around you is just STARDUST.

I will remind myself now to do this more often when there is a clear night sky because the mundane life can keep you so occupied that you forget WHERE and WHAT you really are...

...

I just ride.

Last day at the office... counting the hours, watching the clock tick away the minutes. Because when the clock tells me it's 4 in the afternoon, I'm outta here! And I will be free for three weeks.
Summer Holidays with my man. And a motorcycle. And lots of Aperol. Vinyl. Sunbathing. Morning runs in the forest park. Swimming of course. Catching up on un-read books. Reconciling with my guitars again. They felt abandoned. I'm going to wake them from their gentle sleep to get lost in tunes after sunset.


I am fed up with this work shit. It doesn't mean anything to me. They all spend their lives like hamsters in a wheel, just working their fucking asses off pretending to be someone special because they have some sort of title before their names. To me they are all a bunch of LOSERS. A stupid carreer is not a LIFE.



You come to a point where...

...you realise that in order for your own happiness and sanity, you have to categorise the people around you in the following:

• People who are actually important to you and who you take serious
• People who are NOT important to you and what they say is actually meaningless to you and detrimental for your wellbeing.

When you think about it it all comes down to this. After my battle with depression, which was the darkest phase in my life, I have come to this conclusion that if someone is a total asshole/bitch to you without any reason whatsoever and you can hear their own bitterness everytime they speak, they are immediately in the second category and whatever they are going to do/say to me will bounce off of me completely. I might even laugh at them because I really pity their lives and yes, in this case I think that I AM better than those people because I don't take my frustration out on innocent people and make them feel like crap deliberately.

I will not give any of these people a say in my life. Ever. I will not take it personally, I just pity them that they cannot get their act together and are living a truly miserable life.

The only right attitude you need to have in life is the occasional FUCK YOU (even if you don't SAY it) to those people and just laugh it off because WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT, are they ANYTHING to you? Are they worth your anger, your worries, your tears maybe?
What are these People to YOU ?  ....  I won't let anyone get in the way of my happiness again. They better brace themselves.

Just a quick update...

Again, I have totally abandoned this blog. I don't even care if no one reads all this but I just want something, an outlet I guess where I can put some of my creativity, thoughts, photos and what not. Why can't I keep up with this?

I guess I just don't like that this blog does not have a specific theme.. but I don't wanna open up a new blog talking about some other topic because then I will abandon this one even more...

I will try to update this blog next week with photos I take because I will have three weeks off of work and we will probably be doing some fun things.

Soo.. whatever, hope to get some ideas for this blog soon.. :/

Dazed and Confused...

There is this strange feeling that I get these days.
I can't explain.
Is it disappointment?
Is it tiredness?
You never seem to care.
Am I just hurt by other things?
On the verge of a nervous breakdown all the time.
Is this the way to live?

Crystal Love.

So I just got this idea to do something like a series on this blog. I want to blog more regularly with a certain topic in mind and not be all over the place like usual. Arrgh, I want this blog to be so many things... 

Anyway, I am planning to do some blog posts about my crystals/stones that I have collected over the past few years and especially the last months where my love for them has grown again. To get to know every stone better I will spend a week with it, for example, carry it around with me, hold it in my hand during the day, put it under my pillow at night, meditate with it, etc.... 

I think this will actually be a fun thing to do, because I feel like I have gathered so many stones but have only "worked" with a few of them. Also, it would give me a topic for this blog. Yay!

The series will be called "Crystal Love". It will not replace regular updates and "things from my mind" on weird intervals though. So, once in a week I will write my experiences with the chosen stone here.

 

Happy Imbolc!

 

Imbolc Almond Crescent Cookies

HAVE A BLESSED IMBOLC; EVERYONE !

Witchy Times. #1

Current altar setup.

My new companion.

LATE Christmas blog post.

X-Mas Lunch was a huge yummy salmon. 

Our tree. 

Christmas Eve with The Grinch, Cake and Eggnog!!

 

 

 

 

 

Yankee Candle Sugared Apple as a gift- love the scent!

Klosterneuburg the night before Christmas.

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First week of September....

Late late breakfast....

My lunch was already pretty fall-ish... haha. I just love everything with pumpkin.

Afternoon coffee kick, one of those new Starbucks Iced Coffees. Yup, tastes good!

And the song of da daaaayyy:

Oh yeah.

I see that Blogger has a whole new face. Pretty neat I guess. Maybe this will get me into the whole blogging thing again because I don't know why I've never gotten round to blogging regularly...

I fell in love with this frequency painting by Teal Scott:

by Teal Scott

Isn't this like one of the most beautiful things you've ever seen?? I think I'm somehow going to print it out and hang it above my bed, it's mesmerizing! 

I also ordered Teal's book for a very low price, originally it was 25€, which is quite expensive for someone like me but now I'm excited I got the chance to order it for a super-duper low price!

If you have no idea who Teal Scott is, check out this link:

www.thespiritualcatalyst.com 


Also check out this link, it seriously gave me goosebumps. Soo beautiful! =)

21 pictures that will restore your faith in humanity!

I need some colour in my life...

(via weheartit)

Almost Famous is calling me!

Now that spring has officially arrived, I'm sooo in the mood to watch Almost Famous and get inspired by the awesome hippie style clothes. 

Love the boots...

You can say what you want, she has the coolest wardrobe!

LOVE that tie dye skirt. I have a similar one in green. But purple would be nice as well.

Probably still a bit too chilly for that outfit ;)

Would wear all those clothes while sitting on a tour bus or in a cool car listening to this song. Yay!!

(pics via weheartit, allmoviephoto, thegirlskeepcomingtothecanyon.tumblr)

Where is the reason?

Would be awesome if that would work..

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Tarot Woman

Wander alone; bearing the Light and thy Staff. 
And be the Light so bright that no man seeth thee. 
Be not moved by aught without or within: 
keep Silence in all ways.

(Aleister Crowley, The Book Thoth)

(via moonsiren.tumblr.com, weheartit)

Keep making me laugh, let's go get high

Okay, normally I'm not into chart music AT ALL. But I just had to share this video on my blog.

It is worth watching because of 1. her clothes 2. her make up 3. the MUSTANG!

Plus, it's Valentine's Day today and who wouldn't want to daydream about making out and getting high in a MUSTANG?!?!  Btw, I want that fringe jacket, dammit.